panghet.

when im with you, i dont have to try.  i dont have to try to make it work..it just keeps going on and on..your smile is what keeps the happiness within us.. its your eyes that guide this relationship...its your laughter that fuels us.  im just a passenger riding along in this dream. cherishing every ounce of enjoyment i can get from being with you. 

i never thought i would fall for someone like you..someone here in the philippines for that matter.  but with you..it's different..its like im supposed to see you everyday..it feels like im supposed to see your smile every day of my life.

i know some ppl are gonna say "dont take this too seriously..you guys have only been together for a short time." honestly tho..it feels like ive known her forever. 

i dont know..everything about her just talks to every inch of my being.  its like even if we come from different cultures, we can still level with each other and have conversations with each other without even opening our mouths.

i could be wrong about her..i could be right about her..but if i take my hearts advice i can assume that she is the one i want.

thanks for a good bday, bayyy. ily.

*hoy pagong..i know its short..the reason is because i see you everyday..so the things i wanted to write here, ive already said to you.*

real entry.

so..it's been awhile since a real entry has been posted.  so i guess ill update you guys on what's the happs.

so..im a senior now..w/c means only 1 more year left of this nursing stuff..then onto what i really want. medical school.  i cant believe how the tables have turned..almost 4 years ago..i was a fck up..i was just going to class coz i had to.  now it's like..im going to class coz i want to.

im sooo stoked to get that m.d. behind my name.  i dont care about the salary at all either..im more concerned about the knowledge that comes with being a doctor.  the more i read about medical school, the more i realize how minuscule the nursing curriculum is compared to a doctors..w/c becomes motivation for me.  like, say im having trouble on a nursing topic..when i think about how medical school is and how much harder it is, im more motivated to just push myself, coz it's nothing compared to the latter.

i had my first summer rotation over at AUF med..and i see these nurses that are all tired walking, giving meds, and all that shit..and it just makes me laugh. coz an hour later..i see clerks and residents coming in that have only received 2 hours of sleep..doing their rounds..completing drug presentations..and randomly dozing off while doing those things..

that stuff would normally make a person steer away from that kind of profession..but for me? i want that. i wanna get as tired as them.  i wanna lack sleep coz of too much work..i wanna look all haggard coz of it.  coz that's what i truly wanna do.

that's  why i dont get these kids in nursing..staying up till like 3 am studying one topic.. maybe if they stopped watching tv, playing stupid computer games..and stupid facebook games, they could get a decent 8 hour sleep...the latest ive slept was like 12 am. and that was for a final exam. 

you know the avg time a medical student sleeps? 4 am. then gets up around 6-7 am for clinicals.

yeah yeah..this medical school ramble is stupid..and you guys prly think im bashing nursing..when in reality im not.  i admire what nurses do.  without them, who would listen to our complaints?? ahahaha..but kidding aside, like my ncm teacher said, doctors and nurses have a very particular set of skills w/c make them invaluable to the health care team.

but in the end..the Doctor is the one that calls the shots.  the doctor is the captain of the ship.

and as of this day..i have less than a year to start on that journey. 

still alive

keep it real world.