i hope this is clear as glass

i have two issues to talk about today. one to clear up and another to clarify.

1) ive been taking some heat from some ppl thinking that im still broken over what happened back in the states. okay, so. im only human. it's only normal for me to feel the way i do.

yes, i know that i shouldnt be "throwing away my dignity and self respect" over this girl, but this girl was worth it all. you'll never truly understand the way i feel until youve lived a day in my shoes. and fine, say she wasnt worth it, it still doesnt help change the way i feel.

Now, to the main thing you guys wanna hear. yes, im still a little bruised up from it, but i am putting myself back together. im stronger, wiser, colder and that much more determined to finish med school. i will complete this task.

DONT THINK OTHERWISE, DONT EVER SPECULATE, AND NEVER EVER MAKE THE MISTAKE OF DOUBTING ME.

2)this blog is mine, and if you dont like what i have to say, you can stop reading it. i only asked you to promote it. i never forced you to read it. so that being said, there's the door.

cloudy day

im focused, but not feelin it.

i thought i was finished with you. dont you know the rules? no loitering on property..i.e. my head.

blah..ill just live journal this entry.

pieces.

Idle hands

Writing right now to keep my hands busy. I wanna contact her, but I know it's the wrong decision. I'm glad I'm sleepy, otherwise I'd think more about it and end up calling her.

Thank goodness for school.


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i wrote a whole entry on paper, but im deciding not to publish it..maybe another time.

im sleepy. i wish time would move faster. so i can finish school faster..gaaah.

Pm entry

So I find myself writing more in my bed, now that I have this option of doing so. Haha.

I'm so stoked to publish this thing when I'm done with school. Hmm.. 5 years, at the most? I wonder how many entries I'll have by then. I'll try to calculate one day. Maybe tomorrow. Haha.

Anyways, I just got a copy of all the Percy Jackson books..u know that lightning thief movie comin out? And so far, it's pretty good. I wanna finish the series before the movie comes out.
There's 4 books.

Blaahhh...need some shut eye.

Pieces.

P.s. Th drawing below was done by one of my classmates. It's like a drawing of our section/group. It's pretty sick. Find me.


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Location:J. Surla St,Angeles City,Philippines

It's pretty hot out today. I'm just here at the hospital again.

Not a busy day, so we just played charades. Haha. That shit is always fun.

Anyways, I've been thinking about starting a video log or something. But not really sure yet. Coz I dk how to edit and shit like that. I remember I made this one vid for my fam bam and it took forever to do. It was only a 3 min video too.

Anyways, Another reason pm shft sucks is coz there's hardly any patients needing emergency surgery. Most are elective, which mostly happens in the mornings.

But yeah. I'll cut it here. Blog later.

Pieces.


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chaos.

so ive been been hooked on this song by k-os. some canadian musician..and i thought i would share it..so he could get more famous..w/c is what i suggest you do with my blog..haha..ill put the lyrics at the end of this entry tho.

anyways, i got clinicals today..and i WAS supposed to hit the gym, but i got too much to study for. so im just gonna write a quick entry then get crackin.

so the song is called "i wish i knew natalie portman." i dont know why though..but you guys prly already know why i put the lyrics on here. coz........................i can relate to them. haha..why else would anyone put a song up? anyways here's the link..and lyrics are below

there's one part that doesnt apply to me though, which is.. "ive been takin apart microphones..youve been takin apart men youve blown"..haha..just dont ppl to think im an emcee. haha.

i wish i knew why

here are the lyrics:

[Intro]
I'm on the run, for my life
It's seems that everything that you said was right
Has come undone, lost my sight
But have you ever thought you've done your best
When you were under the gun, that's right
I know I've seen this place before, but it's never been so fun
Never been so fun

[Chorus]
I've been on the run
This Shadow weighs a ton
It's starting to make sense to me
I can't really make you love me
No I can't really make you love me

I've been on the run
Shadow weighs a ton
I know I found a recipe, for me
But I can't really make you love me
No I can't really make you love me

[Verse 1 - Saukrates]
You know I'm haunted on overseas
Haunted on each coast
Play them like ebaneeza
I made them see the ghost
Back from the future dawned in Japanese kimonos
Even though the streets show love to try to see me grow
I often see me floatin, but my shadow it weighs a ton
Call it baggage, I use it all to advantage
But I can't make you love me
This time it's on you
And you can't try to deny, these words when they're true
I'm on the run

[Chorus]
I've been on the run
This Shadow weighs a ton
It's starting to make sense to me
I can't really make you love me
No I can't really make you love me

I've been on the run
Shadow weighs a ton
I know I found a recipe, for me
But I can't really make you love me
No I can't really make you love me

[Verse 2 - k-os]
Let's gets a steppin
Your tongue is like a weapon
This is cappin from heaven and yet
So are y'es, since the age of seventeen
I've been taking apart microphones
You've been taking apart men you've blown
With glowing skeleton bones
In the closet, animals strike curious poses
They feel the heat between us
But you needs a woman's glorious diamonds and fetus
Carry my penis, I'm like the man in the moon, we kissed see you soon
On the run

[Chorus]
I've been on the run
This Shadow weighs a ton
It's starting to make sense to me
I can't really make you love me
No I can't really make you love me

I've been on the run
Shadow weighs a ton
I know I found a recipe, for me
But I can't really make you love me
No I can't really make you love me