tables turning

so...about 6-7 years ago..i never thought i would be in this position.  this road..this path.  it's crazy how things turn out., you know? 6-7 years ago..i was thinkin about just going to college then finishing up nursing..and just working..but now im on my way to becoming a physician. 

i recently found out about some stuff regarding some ppl close to me..and how they arent doing anything with their lives..w/c is ironic..they went to top school in the US..graduated a year early..and the parents even poured in hella money into the school [coz it's an expensive school] and NOW i find out..theyre not gonna continue with the plans that were made..why am i surprised? ill tell you why..

not too long ago..these ppl were the prize children of some people..they would show-boat them off to other parents..telling everyone how great their kids were and all that..and that they were gonna make it big...long story short..those ppl are eating their words..and i dk if i should feel sorry for them..or just snicker a little bit....well..enough of that.


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i havent blogged about anything in a long time regarding myself. so hmm..medical school..i keep thinking about it..and i told my mom that..and she told me to blog about it..so here goes:


the envy i feel whenever i see 4th year medical students roaming the halls around hospitals cannot be measured.  when i see them falling asleep while charting on the table..it makes me jealous..it makes me want to get to that level. 


i am ready for medical school..i am ready for the sleepless nights. i dk..i feel like this is my destiny..i may be over-acting about it..but that's how i really feel..it's like..i can
picture myself already doing the stuff docs are supposed to do..call it arrogance..call it over-ambition...call it whatever you want..either way..i feel like im gonna a damn good doc..i know im gonna do well..


hayy..i just hope that my significant other can have enough patience for me while im in medical school..because make no mistake..it is very intense...anyways..i was supposed to blog more, but im tired na..haha.

Stupid me

Looked in the wrong direction.

Awesome guy



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Nada

I dk what I do wrong anymore.

-I'm patient
-I don't yell anymore
-I'm more understanding than I ever was
-I easily forgive now
-I apologize quicker now
-I swallow my pride

What else is there?


Awesome guy


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so this entry is for you. 10-14-1990

yes. you.  you have given me a lot of happiness this past year..and i really wish it continues.  you are a blessing.  your smile puts butterflies in my stomach. and your laugh is as contagious as measles.  and i dont think ill ever get immune from it.

yes you have your mood swings..your mood swings get so bad that sometimes i just wanna swing a hammer on your face. but kidding aside.  despite your mood swings, you make every moment i spend with you..interesting, fun, and memorable.  not a day goes by where i havent smiled or laughed because of the things u say or do.  you are my equal.

we are both strong-willed. we are both stubborn. we are both prideful.  we are both pasaway.

so on this 14th of october, i would like to greet you happy birthday, my pangit baboy.  i have  never met anyone that has pushed me to become a better person..and to always support me when im feeling down.  and i really hope that you continue to support me thru med school and beyond.

and from the bottom of my heart, i would like to say..i love you.

happy birthday.

Hmph. I already miss you, poknot.


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Been awhile

Since I used this phone to blog.

So why am I blogging? Coz I'm really excited to sleep. Haha. Sounds stupid, but yeah. Coz when I got back home from clinicals around 2200 hours, the house was clean, it was nice and dark and all you could here was the pitter-patter of the rain on my roof.

Man, I'm about ready to knock out. So yeah, peace out, world.

Awesome guy


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so it's finally happenin g

so.ive enrolled to medical school..ill be starting in sept. 2011.  its crazy to actually think about it, you know? like 3 years ago..i was just playing around with the idea..then 2 years ago, i started doing research to amuse myself..then 1 year ago..when i started clinicals..that's when i knew..i knew i wanted to become a physician..i wanted to be the one in control of the situation..and u know..while having that drive the past 3 years..it's kinda surreal to see it finally happening..in less than a year for that matter.

and no doubt, im excited as hell..this dream has been on my mind 25/7 366 days a year..i cant stop thinking about it you know?  im excited to see what i become within the next 4 years..and im not trying to be conceited,but i know ill make a damn good doctor..i know i will..i can just feel it..u know..sometimes u get that feeling inside ur stomach about a certain situation?  well i have that about me becoming a physician.

i know im gonna be graduating from a different country..but shit..ppl in the states better not make the mistake of underestimating my abilities.  ive had some haters before, and ive proved them wrong time and time again.  and im willing to do it again to earn my place in the hospital.

and another thing..today..we had to watch a convocation for the new nurses my school pumped out this past year..the ones that passed the boards..and u know..congrats to all of them.. im excited for my fellow classmates. im excited to see them pass the boards..but yeah..anyways, when i saw them u know celebrating..it's like..i couldnt really relate to their joy, while my other classmates could almost identify with the joy the new grads were experiencing.  reason being?  coz im at that point right now..where medical school is not optional anymore..im at the point where..my mind has solidified the fact that med school is after this..so yes..i will be graduating this march, but it's not over..this battle is won, but the war is not over.
ok..so stop here..if you guys find affection or intimacy gross..stop reading...NOW!

along this journey of mine..ive met numerous ppl..some ive hated, others im apathetic to..but one of them..ive learned to love..ive learned to change for the better for this person..and she is my girlfriend..she is from the philippines..and yes we do have some cultural clashes, but we always work on it..

and due to me being fil-am she believes that she'll never be good enough for me..whenever she sees a foreigner or what have you, she starts to feel obsolete...unworthy, not good enough.

but in reality..it's the opposite..this woman has taught me to be patient, to not yell, to be kind without expecting something back..her eyes, her lips, her smile, her laugh, her voice (especially) are more than enough for me..she's perfect the way she is..no foreigner or girl from my past will ever get in the way of that. 

i plan to bring her home with me after med-school..i plan to get all ugly and old with her..call me crazy, but  im in love with her..im in love with jhemari azuro.

and we will work it out..when i go to med school..it will require a lot of patience, but it can be done..and it will be done.

09-01-2011...so it begins.