blaah..im tired..
i just got back from clinicals..pm shift sucks balls..big hairy balls. i mean, i was tellin one of my friends how awesome pm shift is, coz we get to wake up all late and shit. but fccuk, when u get home youre just burnt the eff out. at least that's how i feel.
i dont really like generalizing..as some of you may have noticed..i always say "at least that's how i...." i dk..coz i dont want ppl to think that i speak for the majority..like i can see them sayin, "pshh..well, i dont feel like that." but yeah..anyways.
today was pretty good..my stomach hurts from laughing..coz like..while we were waiting for a patient to hit the OR, we were talking about how each of us would look while having an orgasm..and im sure you guys have seen the andy samberg vid, "jizz in my pants." so yeah, i kept making that andy samberg face, where he bites his lower lip and opens his eyes hella wide..blah..ill just put a link to the video later..im not gonna spend a whole entry explaining it.
but yeah..my eyelids are gettin pretty heavy..so i think im gonna cut it here...
here's the link to the "jizz in my pants" vid
jizz in my pants
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Clinicals
Yay for 3g service right now.
I'm just chilling here at the hospital waiting for a case.
Gah. I hate night shift. Sucks big balls. Anyways, I found an option thingy in this blogger, where I can turn it into a book. It only costs 20 bucks.
I wonder how many entries I'll have by the time I graduate med school..and how many pages it would be. I think you can put a dedication in it too. So spread the blog. And I'll mention you in the dedication.
Finally got a patient. Hakunamatata bitches.
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I'm just chilling here at the hospital waiting for a case.
Gah. I hate night shift. Sucks big balls. Anyways, I found an option thingy in this blogger, where I can turn it into a book. It only costs 20 bucks.
I wonder how many entries I'll have by the time I graduate med school..and how many pages it would be. I think you can put a dedication in it too. So spread the blog. And I'll mention you in the dedication.
Finally got a patient. Hakunamatata bitches.
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
for her.
im sorry. i know, no matter how many times i apologize, it wont justify nor take back what i did. actually, nothing could ever justify what i did, even if it did get me close to you, but like you said, it was in a bad way. im sorry it altered every aspect of your being and the relationships you pursued. I am sorry.
yes, it wasnt fair for you to cut things off the way you did. you couldve told me all that on the phone when i called you before leaving for the airport. i understand you had to do what you did for yourself, but you couldve just given me that explanation thru a facebook message. i dk why it took you awhile to respond to me.
and yes..you did put yourself out there..i just didnt realize it coz of all the mixed signals i was getting..so im sorry for assuming otherwise.
and yes, ill be leaving for 5 years, but i told you i would be coming back every so often.
i think i told you in march/april/may 2010, id be going back to the states for a whole month...then go back to pi in june.. i mean that's only 3-4 months from now.
this is gonna get confusing, so just stay with me
- back to the states in dec 2010-jan2011 for xmas break...
-go back to the pi in jan 2011 to graduate in march.
-then back to the states again in march 2011-sept 2011 after i graduate nursing and stay in cali till med school starts in sept. 2011.--6 whole months of break.
-back to the pi in sept 2011 to start med school
-even then, id be going back in dec 2011-jan2012..a whole month this time of break, not just two weeks..so that's what, 3 months apart?
-go back to the pi around late january 2012 for 2nd sem
-then going back to the states again in june 2012-sept 2012 till.. 3 WHOLE months for summer break.
-then the cycle starts again
id be back more often and have a longer stay...then my breaks would continue like that until i graduate med school, coz they follow US curriculum...at the most, we wouldve only been apart for 5 months..during the january-june segment..not 5 years..gaah.
fcuuuk.. i had it all planned out..i wanted it to work..i was willing to make time to keep you, god damnit!..sigh
but, there's no point in explaining [even if i just did..haha] or trying to convince. youve made your decision and in turn i have made mine.
once again, i am sorry. and please know that i truly mean it.
take care of yourself.
yes, it wasnt fair for you to cut things off the way you did. you couldve told me all that on the phone when i called you before leaving for the airport. i understand you had to do what you did for yourself, but you couldve just given me that explanation thru a facebook message. i dk why it took you awhile to respond to me.
and yes..you did put yourself out there..i just didnt realize it coz of all the mixed signals i was getting..so im sorry for assuming otherwise.
and yes, ill be leaving for 5 years, but i told you i would be coming back every so often.
i think i told you in march/april/may 2010, id be going back to the states for a whole month...then go back to pi in june.. i mean that's only 3-4 months from now.
this is gonna get confusing, so just stay with me
- back to the states in dec 2010-jan2011 for xmas break...
-go back to the pi in jan 2011 to graduate in march.
-then back to the states again in march 2011-sept 2011 after i graduate nursing and stay in cali till med school starts in sept. 2011.--6 whole months of break.
-back to the pi in sept 2011 to start med school
-even then, id be going back in dec 2011-jan2012..a whole month this time of break, not just two weeks..so that's what, 3 months apart?
-go back to the pi around late january 2012 for 2nd sem
-then going back to the states again in june 2012-sept 2012 till.. 3 WHOLE months for summer break.
-then the cycle starts again
id be back more often and have a longer stay...then my breaks would continue like that until i graduate med school, coz they follow US curriculum...at the most, we wouldve only been apart for 5 months..during the january-june segment..not 5 years..gaah.
fcuuuk.. i had it all planned out..i wanted it to work..i was willing to make time to keep you, god damnit!..sigh
but, there's no point in explaining [even if i just did..haha] or trying to convince. youve made your decision and in turn i have made mine.
once again, i am sorry. and please know that i truly mean it.
take care of yourself.
I'm really diggin this blog thingy for iPhone. I mean if you guys read my past entries, I think I complained about forgetting about what I was gonna write about coz I always forget when I finally get on the computer. But with this blog thing, I can blog anytime I want. Haha.
Anyways, I'm layin in bed again. Got clinicals tomorrow. So yeah.
My sister just told me that my rents are on a tight budget, but if I can save 30,000 pesos by April, I can go back to the states for one month, or however long our summer break is. 30 racks is what 650 usds? And a ticket is say 1000 at the most this time of the year. So I guess I just gotta tighten my belt. No more eating and out and shit.
Gaaah.. That would be so sick to go back in 3 months. I get to have my 23rd bday back home. And prly get to see one of my best friend's graduate.
I'm like really determined to save money now. Coz my sister graduates this year too, so i don't wanna miss out on that either. Hmm...I dk if I shud start a countdown on facebook or not.. It's only been like 48 hours since I got here and I'm already ready to go back..
*the following is a true story*
So I'm working at gnc..and I'm like bored as he'll studying my anatomy book, when a elderly black dude walks in and asks for some vitamins. I kindly oblige and ring him up afterwards. For the sake of a name, I'll name him Alonzo. So, Alonzo sees my anatomy book and asks what my major is, I reply nursing. And then out of nowhere he says, and I'll never forget this: "so many nurses nowadays. You wanna know what I think? I think more ppl should become physicians. Not too many good docs out there. If you think about it, those 4 years will pass by anyways, so why not make it productive?"
Then he left. And I never saw that dude again. Mind you, most customers at gnc are regulars.
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Anyways, I'm layin in bed again. Got clinicals tomorrow. So yeah.
My sister just told me that my rents are on a tight budget, but if I can save 30,000 pesos by April, I can go back to the states for one month, or however long our summer break is. 30 racks is what 650 usds? And a ticket is say 1000 at the most this time of the year. So I guess I just gotta tighten my belt. No more eating and out and shit.
Gaaah.. That would be so sick to go back in 3 months. I get to have my 23rd bday back home. And prly get to see one of my best friend's graduate.
I'm like really determined to save money now. Coz my sister graduates this year too, so i don't wanna miss out on that either. Hmm...I dk if I shud start a countdown on facebook or not.. It's only been like 48 hours since I got here and I'm already ready to go back..
*the following is a true story*
So I'm working at gnc..and I'm like bored as he'll studying my anatomy book, when a elderly black dude walks in and asks for some vitamins. I kindly oblige and ring him up afterwards. For the sake of a name, I'll name him Alonzo. So, Alonzo sees my anatomy book and asks what my major is, I reply nursing. And then out of nowhere he says, and I'll never forget this: "so many nurses nowadays. You wanna know what I think? I think more ppl should become physicians. Not too many good docs out there. If you think about it, those 4 years will pass by anyways, so why not make it productive?"
Then he left. And I never saw that dude again. Mind you, most customers at gnc are regulars.
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dunzo
*psh..yeah..it would rain*
listening to 'win' again..i think im blogging about 3x a day now...i mean at least on this one..i have a private one, where the nitty gritty shit is said..but yeah..that's just for me.
hmm..i guess i shall let the hands move where they please:
**reader discretion is advised**
im done with you. i cant believe i put myself out there for you. i threw away my fckn dignity and self respect chasing you..and im not one to do that often..i thought you were worth it, but you pull this shit of not replying at all..suure, it was only 3 days of waiting, but it felt like 3 effin years...i mean...cmon! why? why didnt u just give me an answer? why did u have to drag it on? i ran to a pay phone right before i boarded the plane and called you..you told me to facebook you..i did..and 2 days no reply...ughhh..you put me thru an emotional blender...i was sitting in my seat on the plane..thoughts going back and forth if you were actually gonna give me a reply to whether u wanted to try or not.
my head felt like exploding..the only medication i had was music..and as always, it delivered.
you know? suure, it's long distance, but if two ppl really loved each other, they would still try right? even if it failed at the end? coz that's what ppl in love do..at least i think that's what they do...i was willing to do anything..i was gonna buy a webcam..and talk to her as much as i could..even if it meant i had no social life...trying then failing is better than not trying at all..am i right? or am i right?
but maybe..in the end, she didnt have the same feelings for me..that's why she didnt wanna try it. ill never know...i mean after 4 whole years of not seeing her, i was willing to put myself out there again..willing to make time to make it work.. and i thought she would want to do the same, but i guess ppl change. and ive accepted that.
im done chasing you, im done trying to be important in your life, im done trying to convince you that no one will ever feel the same way about you as i did, im done trying to find reasons for what happened during the holiday season, im done holding out hope that youll still be mine after i gradute med school, im done with making sure that no one will take my heart like you did, im done with you.
listening to 'win' again..i think im blogging about 3x a day now...i mean at least on this one..i have a private one, where the nitty gritty shit is said..but yeah..that's just for me.
hmm..i guess i shall let the hands move where they please:
**reader discretion is advised**
im done with you. i cant believe i put myself out there for you. i threw away my fckn dignity and self respect chasing you..and im not one to do that often..i thought you were worth it, but you pull this shit of not replying at all..suure, it was only 3 days of waiting, but it felt like 3 effin years...i mean...cmon! why? why didnt u just give me an answer? why did u have to drag it on? i ran to a pay phone right before i boarded the plane and called you..you told me to facebook you..i did..and 2 days no reply...ughhh..you put me thru an emotional blender...i was sitting in my seat on the plane..thoughts going back and forth if you were actually gonna give me a reply to whether u wanted to try or not.
my head felt like exploding..the only medication i had was music..and as always, it delivered.
you know? suure, it's long distance, but if two ppl really loved each other, they would still try right? even if it failed at the end? coz that's what ppl in love do..at least i think that's what they do...i was willing to do anything..i was gonna buy a webcam..and talk to her as much as i could..even if it meant i had no social life...trying then failing is better than not trying at all..am i right? or am i right?
but maybe..in the end, she didnt have the same feelings for me..that's why she didnt wanna try it. ill never know...i mean after 4 whole years of not seeing her, i was willing to put myself out there again..willing to make time to make it work.. and i thought she would want to do the same, but i guess ppl change. and ive accepted that.
im done chasing you, im done trying to be important in your life, im done trying to convince you that no one will ever feel the same way about you as i did, im done trying to find reasons for what happened during the holiday season, im done holding out hope that youll still be mine after i gradute med school, im done with making sure that no one will take my heart like you did, im done with you.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
yeaah
just took my make up exam..got 90%. not bad for not studying that hard for it..i mean, i studied a little bit during winter break, but that's not really studying.
hmm...i went over all my fcs..but i still feel like i have to do something..oh wait..i feel like calling her, but i know i shouldnt for my own good...idle hands are the devil's playground..so i just gotta stay occupied..hmm..maybe ill do my drug study....i dk yet..still gotta workout today..that shud relieve some stress.
pieces, world.
hmm...i went over all my fcs..but i still feel like i have to do something..oh wait..i feel like calling her, but i know i shouldnt for my own good...idle hands are the devil's playground..so i just gotta stay occupied..hmm..maybe ill do my drug study....i dk yet..still gotta workout today..that shud relieve some stress.
pieces, world.
recap
jan- my boys from the states came over to the pi and partied it up in mla...lcg came over also..partied it up again..jan was like new years month actually..haha..i just remember almost skipping my microbio lab to go out..haha.
feb-hmm..what happened in feb? not really an eventful month..maybe midterms?
march-skipped out on a birthday..got ragged on it...took finals..2 week break..jeez..i dont remember anything from 2009
april-hit the 22nd mark..im not sure what else happened..summer school maybe? o yeah..nba playoffs
may-summer school..cooking demo for nutrition class..got mono coz i kept eating other ppls food
june- junior year..started duty..got a mad fever this month, so i stayed in and watched anaconda..ahaha.
july-shoot..i dont remember, prelims.
august-mom came to the pi..burned some bridges..and made new ones. mom left at end of month, midterms
sept-finals, bitches
oct.-layed around, worked out, watched movies, brought my cousin out to get drunk
nov.- started my countdown to go back to my roots
dec.- went back to the states, re-opened some wounds,
overall--i dont remember anything form 2009..i was too fcukn busy...hopefully 2010 feels the same.
feb-hmm..what happened in feb? not really an eventful month..maybe midterms?
march-skipped out on a birthday..got ragged on it...took finals..2 week break..jeez..i dont remember anything from 2009
april-hit the 22nd mark..im not sure what else happened..summer school maybe? o yeah..nba playoffs
may-summer school..cooking demo for nutrition class..got mono coz i kept eating other ppls food
june- junior year..started duty..got a mad fever this month, so i stayed in and watched anaconda..ahaha.
july-shoot..i dont remember, prelims.
august-mom came to the pi..burned some bridges..and made new ones. mom left at end of month, midterms
sept-finals, bitches
oct.-layed around, worked out, watched movies, brought my cousin out to get drunk
nov.- started my countdown to go back to my roots
dec.- went back to the states, re-opened some wounds,
overall--i dont remember anything form 2009..i was too fcukn busy...hopefully 2010 feels the same.
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