panghet.

when im with you, i dont have to try.  i dont have to try to make it work..it just keeps going on and on..your smile is what keeps the happiness within us.. its your eyes that guide this relationship...its your laughter that fuels us.  im just a passenger riding along in this dream. cherishing every ounce of enjoyment i can get from being with you. 

i never thought i would fall for someone like you..someone here in the philippines for that matter.  but with you..it's different..its like im supposed to see you everyday..it feels like im supposed to see your smile every day of my life.

i know some ppl are gonna say "dont take this too seriously..you guys have only been together for a short time." honestly tho..it feels like ive known her forever. 

i dont know..everything about her just talks to every inch of my being.  its like even if we come from different cultures, we can still level with each other and have conversations with each other without even opening our mouths.

i could be wrong about her..i could be right about her..but if i take my hearts advice i can assume that she is the one i want.

thanks for a good bday, bayyy. ily.

*hoy pagong..i know its short..the reason is because i see you everyday..so the things i wanted to write here, ive already said to you.*

real entry.

so..it's been awhile since a real entry has been posted.  so i guess ill update you guys on what's the happs.

so..im a senior now..w/c means only 1 more year left of this nursing stuff..then onto what i really want. medical school.  i cant believe how the tables have turned..almost 4 years ago..i was a fck up..i was just going to class coz i had to.  now it's like..im going to class coz i want to.

im sooo stoked to get that m.d. behind my name.  i dont care about the salary at all either..im more concerned about the knowledge that comes with being a doctor.  the more i read about medical school, the more i realize how minuscule the nursing curriculum is compared to a doctors..w/c becomes motivation for me.  like, say im having trouble on a nursing topic..when i think about how medical school is and how much harder it is, im more motivated to just push myself, coz it's nothing compared to the latter.

i had my first summer rotation over at AUF med..and i see these nurses that are all tired walking, giving meds, and all that shit..and it just makes me laugh. coz an hour later..i see clerks and residents coming in that have only received 2 hours of sleep..doing their rounds..completing drug presentations..and randomly dozing off while doing those things..

that stuff would normally make a person steer away from that kind of profession..but for me? i want that. i wanna get as tired as them.  i wanna lack sleep coz of too much work..i wanna look all haggard coz of it.  coz that's what i truly wanna do.

that's  why i dont get these kids in nursing..staying up till like 3 am studying one topic.. maybe if they stopped watching tv, playing stupid computer games..and stupid facebook games, they could get a decent 8 hour sleep...the latest ive slept was like 12 am. and that was for a final exam. 

you know the avg time a medical student sleeps? 4 am. then gets up around 6-7 am for clinicals.

yeah yeah..this medical school ramble is stupid..and you guys prly think im bashing nursing..when in reality im not.  i admire what nurses do.  without them, who would listen to our complaints?? ahahaha..but kidding aside, like my ncm teacher said, doctors and nurses have a very particular set of skills w/c make them invaluable to the health care team.

but in the end..the Doctor is the one that calls the shots.  the doctor is the captain of the ship.

and as of this day..i have less than a year to start on that journey. 

still alive

keep it real world.

nursing is an art.

my teacher told me im gonna enjoy ncm 104.  --it's about the body..nothing about communicating with psych patients.

i hate psychiatric nursing.  id rather just deal with the abnormalities of the patient..instead of knowing what to say to them.  im more into just how everything works..and the shit i shud do to fix shit that isnt working in the body. 

right now we're going over psychiatric illnesses..and i mean..im top notch when it comes to recognizing symptoms, and chemical or structural abnormalities, but when it comes to therapeutic communication, i just suck...

i guess..that's another perk of being a doctor....correct me if im wrong, but doctors mainly deal with the main problem..they dont really have to deal with complaints of the patient..coz nurses do that shit..like what to say and all that..blahh..

i just love the anatomy and physiology of the body..i could care less on how to respond to a patient asking me about how i should console him...and in the future that wont be my job.. it will be the, no offense, to the nurses.

another music entry.

remember when the music u listened to was basically your identity? or u assumed that ppl would look at you a certain way if they heard what music u listened to?  like when i listened to underoath i used to think that ppl would think i was atypical in a cool way..i mean, i still listen to underoath..haha..oh for those of you who dont know, underoath is a screamo band..but yeah..and if i listened to hieroglyphics [underground hip hop], i thought ppl would think i was a chill dude..haha. 

i used to just stick to just one genre actually..coz i thought that was the cool thing to do in high school..haha..now i just dont give a f.  i listen to everything..even country..yes..taylor swift counts as country in my book..and when i see ppl limiting themselves to one genre, it pisses me off..hahaha..coz all music should be listened too..each has it's own gravity..by that, i mean it has it's own unique way of making you zone out..but yeah..i just got back from clinicals..so im dunzo for now.

pieces.

awesome guy

dark knight

fcuuuk..my stupid signature thing wont work..i dk why.

anyways..i was lookin online if there was any recent news about a 3rd installment for the batman franchise. as some of you may know..im a huge batman fan..as geeky as it sounds..i dont really care..i grew up on that dude..my first action figure when i was 3 [or so my mom tells me] was a batman action figure..and i still have the very first batman movie [1989] VHS..crazzzzy..huh? yeah..it is.  so yeah..while i was lookin it up..it made me think about the day i watched dark knight.

it was the day before midterms.  i was a sophomore .and the day before dark knight would be released..if i remember right, it was july 17, 2008..and the release date was..obviously the 18th.  so yeah..im on my way back from coffee academy from studying, when i see on the sign of robinson's mall "dark knight"..im on a jeep already..im like.."fcuuuk...duuude..i cant believe it's in theatres already! gotta go back!" and another thing u guys may know is im a study freak..ill flake on ppl, not return texts/calls, and all that if i got some studying to do..but that day..i got back on a jeep and went to robinsons...so yeah..get into the theatre..and the opening scene starts..

the feeling i got from that was just like the way i felt when i would step in to kb toys or toys r us, or any toy store for that matter when i was a kid. i was in awe..like..i couldnt believe i was finally watching it..coz ive been following the movie a year before..look at production clips and all that, movie stills, and any news about the dark knight..so as u can tell i was pretty stoked. and to finally watch it on the big screen..man..it was awesome..but yeah..that's all i gotta say..haha.


awesome guy (stupid signature thingy)

water spinach

so like..this entry is about water spinach..aka..kang-kong..ive been eating a lot of that lately..coz im broke as hell..well not really..im just tryin to save up money so i can go back to the states..haha..

and i dont really like saying the word kang-kong..coz for some twisted reason..it reminds of the word "thong." hahaha...so when i do end up saying it..it sounds hella funny..like when i go to a food joint, like chow-king..ill order kang kong.and the dude wont understand me..so i gotta say it like 3x more..hahah..

ahh..kang-kong..it makes me poop alot too..i think that's one of the things i like about it too..when i get up in the morning..and drink my coffee..i start to feel that uneasy feeling in my stomach..and u know what i do? i just smile..and let it build..build up to the point where i have to run to the restroom..sometimes ill bring a book with me..actually. make that most of the time..coz i like to marinate myself in the stench of my own shit..it's liberating....hahaha...that was stupid..but yeah..i do end up bringing a book with me..coz kang kong makes me shit pounds, son! it's good tho.

thanks kang-kong.

love,

awesome guy. (signature thingy isnt working..so i gotta do it manually..laaame.)