your biggest fan.

99%...no, that is not one of my grades.

Almost there.

Looking at the girl's facebook profile just makes me move on even faster, w/c is a good thing.

Seeing her having fun over there, meeting new ppl, and going to parties make me feel pathetic that I was wrapped around her finger all this time. And most of all encourages me to move on even more.  Makes me feel pathetic that I put myself thru all that shit in the late part of dec and early Jan.

Seeing her enjoyment makes me want to be able to move on quick like that.

and please ppl..if ur reading this and ur thinking "uh oh..now he's gonna get discouraged from med school..my gosh..he gets so distracted with this girl" just stop reading already..coz 1st off, no..im not discouraged at all to go to AND finish med school, 2nd off..look at number 1.

so yeah..anyways, im like in purgatory right now..like between happiness and sadness..coz im somewhat apathetic right now to the things around me.. the only thing i care about are my grades and myself..the past week and half, ive been a hermit..not knowing what to feel..it feels like my apathy is my motivation to do well..coz it feels like my intellect is all i have now..i feel like itll get me places, fuck that..i KNOW itll get me places.that itll transform me into something more..something better..and that when im finished..all the ppl that i met along the way, all the ppl that doubted me, and all the ppl that have hurt me in my past will notice what ive become and regret their actions.

dont get me wrong..that's not my motivation..i guess it just comes with the territory.

ive changed things..forever.

oh yeah..another song im feelin..haha.. check it out.

NeverShoutNever- biggest fan

Your Biggest Fan

I'm a real big fan of yours
But I'm quite the joke to you
But girl it wasn't a joke when you
Kissed me in your room and replied
"I love you too"

I'm a little bit insecure
From all of this mis-treatment
But see I'm workin it out
Workin it out you're so damn hard
When you learn

sha da da da da da da da da da
da da da da da da da da da

I am running out of words
To say to you, wondering why im
wasting my time
Thinking back and won-dering why
I'm such a fool for loving you

And I get to the point where
All I wanted for for us to make up
But its not that easy
Cause girl you move on so quickly
Keeping a boy like me at the edge of his seat

And I know everything you do
Is all about your perfect image
Well I hope this song
It helps your image

sha da da da da da da da da da da
da da da
I'm so over you now

I am running out of words
To say to you, wondering why I'm
Wasting my time
Thinking back and won-dering why
I'm such a fool for loving you

And I was one who thought I was strong
Well you proved me wrong
Now I'm singing along every song
On the radio i dont wanna go
Come on baby tell me
Something I wanna know
Now wanna see what is on my mind
Because slack of motivation is
taking over my time and I'm sick of trying

All together now!

I am running out of words
To say to you, wondering why I'm
Wasting my time
Thinking back and won-dering why
I'm such a fool for loving you